New Age Addiction....

The moment i wake up in the morning its on my mind. I just need a taste, a hit. I carry it around in a baggy and sneak a crunch whenever i can, i even leave class to get a taste. The regular stuff doesn't do it for me anymore, and although its a little more expensive, this stuff keeps me sane and from going through a withdrawal. I used to be able to control it, but now its controlling me. Always on my mind. I wish i could inject it into my veins, but i would probably die.......so i'm just going to stick with a spoon and some milk.

When it rains....

i become a completely different person.
today i was:
irritable
tounge-tied
brain fart
slow
shaky
confused
uncontrollable
dizzy
sleepy
drenched
absent minded
idiotic
blocked
thoughtful

Fat Design

Ive been literally surfing the web.....and ive caught a pretty wicked wave

Broken Wrist Project artists:

Saimon Chow


arthur giron


ryan wallace


martha rich


jeff soto


http://fatboyusa.com/home.php
i want to live on this magical softness

BK not the value meal

im going to Brooklyn with me moms in two weeks for the weekend (ooo so fabulous, pshhh) but along with visiting family friends we will hit up the Brooklyn museum of art which is featuring a very special Murakami show, please close your jaws and open your eyes:

http://www.brooklynmuseum.org/exhibitions/murakami/

"Well these days I'm spread so thin I'm getting carried up by the wind Every time you get high You might see me floating by"
-devendra banhart

i feel more and more away everyday. im trying to grow, im trying to live. my body is a cage and my mind is a field. i want to open up a large blanket in an empty grassy scape and sleep with the sun waking up my freckles and knowing in my head that im not alone. its hard to tell what people want from me. i get these vibrations that im not wanted, im just a laugh. so many decisions scare me and my heart is beating faster and pumping harder just to deal with the anxiety i put on myself. when i am on my own im becoming the night owl i have envied in so many. the sun will be blanket as i sleep during the day and moon will be my source of energy. i want to please you, and you, and you, and you. im second place. i dont understand how i have so much ahead of me but its so busy i cant even see where im going. some people will never know who i am. i would never bare that burden on any new person. listen, listen, listen, listen. thats what you have to do. world hug me its beautiful to be loved.

the most amazing dance craze..........and music............

TECKTONIK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cupcakes cupcakes cupcakes...

i spent 45 minutes last night looking up pictures of cupcakes, and this is what i found:

Blogger or Booger?

im obsessing over somethings....

i used to have a xanga, but i tend to follow internet trends because i dont know how to start my own.

its so lonely in my heart right now and i cant even bring myself to talk about it. its spring so maybe some memories will go away, far far away.